CINDY'S BLOG

There are times when the Lord gently leads you down the path he wishes for you to take. There are other times when you have to be dragged kicking and screaming down that path. Last week was one of those times when the Lord yanks the steering wheel out of your hands and says, "Move over and let me drive". Thursday was a pivotal day for me. I spent most of the day in tears feeling like someone had just kicked me in the stomach. I felt betrayed by people I had thought of as my friends. I was deeply hurt by what was happening and didn't know what I should do. Once I let go of the steering wheel and let God tell me what I needed to do, I began to feel better. It all became clear while driving Aidan to preschool. I keep my car radio on a Contemporary Christian station (The Fish to be exact). There was one particular song that come on the radio that really spoke to me and that song was Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns. The chorus really stuck in my head:

But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

It was at that point that I came to realize how toxic being a part of a certain website had become to me. It was no longer a place of support, but a place that was bringing me stress and unhappiness. It was not bring glory to the Lord. Then it all clicked. God has been leading me to really develop the Right Minded Moms site into something more. I wasn't listening to him, so he had to knock me upside the head to get my atttention. The site has a lot of potential and is where I should be putting my energies. I hope that I can make Right Minded Moms into a site that will provide support to all conservative moms that feel harrassed and afraid to even use the word "God" in a post at other sites.

I really feel good about this decision now. Having the Voice of Truth song come on every time I turn on the radio since making this choice, really hammers home to me that I am now on the path the Lord wants me to be on. I am at total peace with this now. I do not blame anyone for this, I do not hate anyone involved in causing this to come to pass. Actually, I suppose I should be thanking them for having a hand in leading me down this path. If you are looking for me online, you can find me at Right Minded Moms . I hope to see you there! I can truely say now that I am in my right mind.

Kayli's top two teeth have been loose for quite sometime. We have been trying to get her to let us pull them out since before Christmas. One of them was twisted behind the other and it looked just horrible! Kayli had her expander removed a few weeks ago and now needed to get a retainer. I have been telling her all week that the dentist was going to pull those teeth, but every time we went to touch them she screamed like we were killing her! Today she went to the orthodontist to get her retainer. The orthodontist took one look at those two teeth and said they had to come out. She only wimpered a bit while the orthodontist pulled out the teeth. Her permanent teeth are already coming in, so it is a very good thing the orthodontist pulled them out. The receptionist was saying that we were lucky the orthodontist took them out because the regular dentist charges to do that! She got this cute little treasure box to put her teeth in. I'm not sure whether she will want to give them to the tooth fairy or not tonight.

I was thinking today about some of the cute things that the twins say. They have come so far with their language in the last few months. The speech therapy has helped them so much. One thing that Jared says that is so cute is "Oh! Thanks!". He says this whenever you give something to him, his milk, food, his toys, blanket, anything. It is so adorable! Another cute thing that both Jared and Riley say is "Owie, that hurt!" whenever they get a boo-boo. It's never just Owie! But always "Owie, that hurt!" I don't have any idea where they picked that up. It is so funny! They both call their blankets "bank" and blues clues is "boo". Riley says "popy" for open. It took me a while to figure out that was what he was saying.

We had so much fun ringing in the new year last night. My nieces, who are staying with my in-laws while their parents go to Russia to adopt another child, in-laws, and SIL all come over. We played games, watched Star Wars, had snacks and were outside at the stroke of midnight to ring in the new year. There must have been 20 kids outside! We had some fireworks and sparklers and our next door neighbor had fountains saved from the 4th of July. I sure hope no one in our neighborhood was trying to sleep! It seemed like almost all the nieghbors were out there. The twins had gone to sleep hours before and managed to sleep through all the noise. It was so much fun watching the kids run around with sparklers and streamers. We had a ton of party poppers and noise makers and horns too. We spent about 1/2 hour outside having fun before going back in to watch the end of Star Wars. It was after 1 am before we got the kids in bed.